Just because.....

*What you wanted*

When you're a kid daddy tells you that you were a precious gift

When you're a teenager daddy tells you to make him proud

When you're disappoint him he turns his back on you

He compares you to the whole world

He makes you feel like you are nobody

You build up a negative strength

A strength of pride to prove him wrong

That pride breaks you into pieces

You give yourself away

You forget your identity

You only remember what a dissappoinment you are

Daddy tells you he wish he never had you

You tell him you wish you were never born

You build a hate that is hard to let go of

You try but he never allows you to let go

But the father that you never knew comes for you

Sweeps you off your feet and tells you to forget what daddy said

He tells you how beautiful you are

How he sees you as the gift he made you into

He wipes your tears away

Holds you tight and you feel him

Though you cannot see him

The father that you had wanted is seen in him

The father that you wanted is not visible

But he is tangible

Sometimes you think you have it all figured out

Until you fall to pieces and hold on to him

He lifts you up and makes you whole

He makes you feel the joy you've never known

He is powerful yet he reached to the powerless

Sometimes you turn away from him cause you are in pain

Yet he never turns his back on you like daddy did

Don't give yourself away because he gave up his life for you

The father who fills the emptiness you cannot find anywhere else

He is the Heavenly Daddy who is never disappointed.

Just a thought.......

In a town of Divas and Bootlickers, Real people are outkasts! Welcome to Politicaltown!It's high school with adults engineered with the mind of teenagers thinking they are still the IN crowd!

Centuries later.......Amanda Writes..........

Wow,

I reallly have these moodswings and it lasts for a long period of time. So now suddenly it came back to the "I feel like blogging" Mood. So here I am. Well anyways there's so much going on at one point and then suddenly blank "NOTHING". It get's kind of frustrating!!!!!!

There are times when you know, you just love being busy and there are times you just want to sit on the couch the whole day and just think of nothing because of  too much of the "BUSY" moments. Right now I am back to the "I want to be busy" moment. So glad though, leaving for Phuket tomorrow, to relax with my girls. Hope it all goes well!!! Praying hard for it to. GOD BLESS ME!!! Lol.

Well so far to sum up all that I should have blogged about, "People come and go in a second", "Everything in this world is temporary", "God is still faithful in my life and he never leaves nor forsakes", "Music is still my heartbeat","Boredom still exists" and "I want to break free!!!!!!!!", OH and " DIVAS exist in Office buildings, not just HOLLYWOOD."

About the last one, man, there are some really huge divas in offices these days, they hog the printer and tell you not to use it until they are done, they want things to be given to them faster even though you have loads to do, so they can go home early AND they boss you around even when their ranking is one step lower than you, cause,get this, THEY ARE OLDER!!!!!!!!!!!

SELF RIGHTEOUS people exists!!!! I know cause I WAS one.As a Self Righteous person you always think you know EVERYTHING because you have experience in certain areas and you love to make everyone else around feel stupid. As an ex-Self righteous person, I hate the very thing I used to be. I see it in people today and I can define their self righetousness by the way people define them. Recently, there is this person, who constantly reminds a friend of mine how much experience she has in the working world and puts her down and makes her feel stupid all the time. She also stated that the church she goes to, is only for the "strong-hearted", which makes fairly new believers to feel as if they are too weak. As  I was talking to my friend, I got this quote in my mind, People who prove to be strong hearted on the outside are the weakest people on the inside which makes them WEAK. Self righteous people are weak. I should know, because I was breaking apart inside while trying to hold my head up high with all my stinky selfishness. I am an open book and whenever I am able to move past something by GOD'S Grace and God's Grace only, I can share these truths to be help someone else. Sometimes it's alright to ask for help, and it's alright to admit your mistakes and not always turn the blame table to someone else, it's alright to learn from someone YOUNGER, cause being older with experiences may not mean you have the area of knowledge that person may have. Another thing, It's alright to say a simple word called SORRY, instead of always covering up and justifying for yourself.

Humility is the best gift and portion of personality anyone could ever have. I am glad God is helping me to get there. There are still parts of me that need to be broken into pieces. I had to fall and break into pieces to surrender to his GRACE and humility. I had to surrender my SELF Righteousness!

It's alright to make mistakes and admit to it cause it only makes you HUMAN!!!!

ROCK ON,

Amanda V.

If at first you don't succeed try again!

I have heard this phrase a thousand times before anyway for 2010 I'm tapping in to two things that I did not succeed in the first time round but I am not giving up on it cause these two things are apart of my dreams and what is to be accomplished and I believe God will help me to use the Grace he has placed in me to succeed this time.

The first time round things were done on impulse and heart was not in it. The most important part of success is heart. God gives us desires and the heart for a certain gift or talent. It's just a matter of us using our hearts into of course at the start it won't be fully there but as you go on you will find yourself dwelling upon passion. So never give up on something you believed your whole life for because it is something that God has placed in you.

Peace out,

Amanda Victrine